MARILYN MONROE: GODDESS DEEPEST THOUGHTS

MARILYN MONROE'S DEEPEST THOUGHTS

HERE ARE SOME OF MARILYN'S OWN WRITTEN THOUGHTS ABOUT HER

SCARS OF SEXUAL ABUSE; THE PAIN OF PSYCHOTHERAPY; THE BETRAYAL BY ARTHUR MILLER (THE ACTRESS THIRD HUSBAND) THE SPECULATION OF HEREDITARY MADNESS AND HER DETERMINATION TO MASTER HER ART.

MAYBE SOMEHOW OR SOMEWAY, WE MIGHT UNDERSTAND THE ENIGMA OF MARILYN MONROE AND THE MYSTERY OF HER LIFE AND DEATH.

HOWEVER, NO MATTER WHAT SHE WAS NOT A MIRAGE.  HER LIFE EXISTED AND SHE STILL LIVES IN OUR HEART.

On June 19, 1942,Marilyn Monroe was married to James Dougherty, an intelligent, attractive man five years her senior.  She was just 16 years old when she married Dougherty.  She wrote her feelings and deepest analysis about her marriage to him in her diary.

"I was greatly attracted to him as one of the few young men I had no sexual repulsion for besides which it gave me a false sense of security to feel that he was endowed with more overwhelming qualities which I did not possess---on paper it all begins to sound terribly logical but the secret midnight meetings the fugitive glance stolen in others company the sharing of the ocean, moon & stars and air aloneness made it a romantic adventure which a young, rather shy girl who didn't always give that impression because of her desire to belong & develop can thrive on-I had always felt a need to live up to that expectation of my elders."

Marilyn's memory about her marriage to James Dougherty evolved on her fear that he preferred his former girlfriend (Doris Ingram, a beauty queen from Santa Barbara). This situation gave Marilyn a sense of unworthiness and vulnerability to the opposite sex.

"Finding myself of handedly stood up snubbed my first feeling was not of anger---but the numb pain of rejection & hur

t at the destruction of some sort of edealistic image of true love.

My first impulse then was one of complete subjection humiliation, alonement to the male counterpart. (all this thought & writing has made my hands tremble..."

She wrote her thoughts about questioning the process she was doing on self analisis and memory, if this is good for her.

"For someone like me its wrong to go through self-analisis---I do it enough in thought generalities enough.

Its not to much fun to know yourself to well or think you do---everyone needs a little conceit to carry them through & past the falls."

Marilyn's memory about her great-aunt Ida Martin, a strict, evangelical Christian.  Ida was paid by Grace Goddard to look after Norma Jeane (Marilyn's original name) from 1937 to 1938.  She wrote,

"Ida --- I have still been obeying her --- it's not only harmful for me to do so but unrealality because life starts from Now"

Then,

"working (doing my tasks that I have set for myself)  On the stage --- I will not be punished for it or be whipped or be threatened or not be loved or sent to hell to burn with bad people feeling that I am also bad.  or be afraid of my (genitals) being or ashamed, exposed known and seen --- so what or ashamed of my sensitive feelings"

In April 1955, Marilyn moved to the 27th floor of the Waldorf-Astoria.  It was in Waldorf-Astoria that she started writing down some of her memories and dreams.  She wrote about her nightmare in which Strasberg is operating on her with Dr. Hohenberg assisting:

"Best finest surgeon - Strasberg to cut me open which I don't mind since Dr. H has prepared me --- given me anaesthetic and has also diagnosed the case and agrees with what has to be done- an operation - to bring myself back to life and to cure me of this terrible dis-ease whatever the hell it is- and there is absolutely nothing there---Strasberg is deeply disappointed but more even --- academically amazed that he had made such a mistake.  He thought there was going to be so much --- more than he had ever dreamed possible ... instead there was absolutely nothing---devoid of every human living feeling thing---the only thing that came out was so finely cut sawdust---like out of a raggedy ann doll---and the sawdust spills all over the floor & table and Dr. H is puzzled because suddenly she realizes that this is a new type case.  The patient ... existing of complete emptiness, Strasberg's dreams & hopes for theater are fallen.  Dr. H's dreams and hopes for a permanent psychiatric cure is given up---Arthur is disappointed---let down"

On June 29, 1956, Marilyn converted to Judaism in order to marry Arthur Miller (Pulitzer Prize-winning author of All My Sons, Death of a Salesman, The Crucible, and A View from the Bridge).  Marilyn admired Miller because of his intellectual, artistic achievement, and high seriousness.  Marilyn wrote about her marriage to Arthur as such:

"I am so concerned about protecting Arthur, I love him---and he is the only person---human being I have ever known that I could love not only as a man to which I am attracted to practically out of my senses about---but he (is) the only person...that I trust as much as myself---because when I do trust myself (about certain things) I do fully"

In one of Marilyn's sweet and affecting poems (while still in love with Arthur) was about imagining what he might have been like as a young boy:

"my love sleeps besides me---in the faint light---I see his manly jaw give way---and the mouth of his boyhood returns with a softness softer its sensitiveness trembling in stillness.  His eyes must have look out wonderously from the cave of the little boy---when the things he did not understand---he forgot, but will he look like this when he is dead.  Oh unbearable fact inevitable yet sooner would I rather his love die than/or him?"

When Marilyn stumbled upon Arthur Miller's diary, she was devastated.  Arthur wrote his disappointment and embarrassment towards Marilyn in front of his friends.  After knowing about Arthur feeling about her, Marilyn found it difficult to work.  From New York, Marilyn flew to Dr. Hohenberg because she was having difficulty to sleep.  She wrote:

"on the screen of pitch blackness comes/reappears the shapes of monsters, my most steadfast companion...and the world is sleeping.  Ah peace I need you---even a peaceful monster."

In was in winter of 1957, when Miller worked on adapting one of his short stories (The Misfits) for screen, where Marilyn is one of the stars.  She wrote while still haunted with her feelings of disappointment and loss:

"Starting tomorrow I will take care of myself for that's all I really have and as I see it now have ever had.  Roxbury---I've tried to imagine spring all winter---it's here and I still feel hopeless.  I think I hate it here because there is no love here anymore...

In every spring the green (of the ancient maples) is too sharp---though the delicacy in their from is sweet and uncertain---it puts up a good struggle in the wind---trembling all the while...  I think I am very lonely---my mind jumps.  I see myself in the mirror now, brow furrowed---if I lean close I'll see---what I don't want to know---tension, sadness, disappointment, my ['blue" is crossed out] eyes dulled, cheeks flushed with capillaries that look like snakes.  The mouth makes me the sadd[est], next to my dead eyes...

When one wants to stay alone as my love (Arthur) indicates the other must stay apart."

Marilyn moved back to Los Angeles in 1958 to begin work in 'Some Like It Hot'.  It was here when her musings and poems took a dark turn.  Here is one of these poem with a heading, 'After one year of analysis':

Help help

Help

I feel life coming closer

when all I want

Is to die

Scream---

You began and ended in air

but where was the middle?

On March 1 and 2, Marilyn wrote a letter to Dr. Greenson that described her ordeal at Payne-Whtney when she was admitted in a locked psychiatric ward of the said facilities:

"There was no empathy at Payne-Whitney---it had a very bad effect---they asked me after putting in a 'cell' (I mean cement blocks and all) for very disturbed depressed patients (except I felt I was in some kind of prison for a crime I hadn't committed.  The inhumanity thee I found archaic...everything was under lock and key...the doors have windows so patients can be visible all the time, also, the violence and markings still remain on the walls from former patients.)"

In 1956, Marilyn wrote about her distrust and fear towards Peter Lawford, Jack F. Kennedy's brother-in-law and also one of the members of the 'Rat Pack'

"the feeling of violence I've had lately about being afraid of Peter he might harm me, poison ne, etc.

why---strange look in his eyes---strange behavior in fact now I think I know why he's been here so long because I have a need to be frighten[ed]---and nothing really in my personal relationships (and dealings) lately have been frightening me---except for him---I felt very uneasy at different times with him--the real reason I was afraid of him---is because I believe him to be homosexual---not in the way I love & respect and admire [Jack] who I feel feels I have talent and wouldn't be jealous of me because I wouldn't really want to be me

whereas Peter wants to be a woman---and would like to be me---

I think

The name 'Jack' mentioned above is not 'Jack' Kennedy but maybe Jack Cole, the dancer-choreographer who befriended and coached Marilyn on 'Gentlemen Prefer Blondes' and 'There's No Business Like Show Business'.

THE SOURCE OF THIS ARTICLE IS FROM 'VANITY FAIR' ISSUED LAST NOVEMBER 2010

"MARILYN'S SECRET DIARIES"

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ROYAL CHRISTMAS PUDDING

ROYAL CHRISTMAS PUDDING

It takes two months early to make a royal Christmas pudding. 

Anyone wishing to whip up a royal Christmas pudding at home needs to start early as in two months early.  Traditionally around October, the Queen's chefs clean out the kitchen sinks at the palace, which is the only place big enough to mix enough ingredients to serve 30 guests.

The heavily liquored puddings are then ready to eat by December.  And because they're so well preserved, the leftovers are sent to Balmoral and Sandringham for hunting trips because it is good for a full year.  According to the former royal chef Darren McGrady of Eating Royally Catering, for shooting lunches, the chefs cut 3-in. fingers of pudding and fry it in unsalted butter.  Frying the pudding makes it crisp up and go gooey inside.  During hunting trips, each shooters get two fingers of pudding each to take with them on chilly winter days.

ROYAL CHRISTMAS PUDDING

INGREDIENTS

The full recipe is in the McGrady's book 'Eating Royally'.  It calls for a rich mixture of fruit and alcohol and among the ingredients needed for three 2-lb. bowls.

5  cups raisins

3  cups currants

2  cups candied peel

2  cups dark beer

1/2  cup dark rum

1/2  cup brandy

2 & 1/2  cups beef suet

6  cups fresh white breadcrumbs

1 & 1/4  cups flour

3 & 1/2  Tbsp. mixed spice

3 eggs

2  cups demerara sugar

1/4  cup brandy

1/4  cup unsalted butter

HAPPY BAKING!

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BRITISH ROYAL CHRISTMAS DO'S AND DON'TS

ROYAL CHRISTMAS DO'S AND DON'TS

The Do's and Don'ts inside the Royal Christmas Party with the Queen at her country home!

DO GIVE GAG GIFTS

~  The royals frown on lavish presents, as they don't want to be seen looking extravagant.  Instead they exchange silly knick-knacks such as an odd toilet seat cover on Christmas Eve.

DON'T BRING CHILDREN

~  Don't bring children to the Christmas luncheon at Sandringham. Guest must be able to hold a knife and fork properly to sit at the main table.

DO ATTEND CHURCH

~  Do attend church on Christmas Day and sometimes twice!

DON'T WORK

~  The Queen do not work.  She takes the day off from her daily Red Box delivery of government papers.  And the only other day she is off is during Easter Sunday.

DO ENJOY TEA TIME

~  Do enjoy an afternoon tea of rich fruitcake.

DON'T ARRIVE LATE ON CHRISTMAS EVE

~  Don't arrive late on Christmas Eve for presents are given around  teatime.  Wrapped gifts are placed on trestle tables in the Red Drawing Room at Sandringham, where the family then dives in.

DO TAKE CAUTION

~  Do take caution if bringing a pet.  Princess Anne's bull terrier once attacked one of her mother's corgis.  The pup later had to be put down because its injuries were so severe.

DO BRING ENOUGH OUTFITS

~  Do bring enough outfits for at least six changes of clothes between Christmas Eve and Boxing Day every 26th of December.

This article is from the 'PEOPLE MAGAZINE' issued last December 2015

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HAPPY THANKSGIVING

HAPPY THANKGIVING

TO ALL OF YOU

For each new morning with its light,

For rest and shelter of the night,

For health and food,

For love and friends,

For everything thy goodness sends,

For flowers that bloom about our feet;

For tender grass, so fresh, so sweet;

For song of bird, and hum of bee;

For all things fair, we hear or see;

Father in heaven, we thank thee!

Ralph Waldo Emerson

THANK YOU FOR BEING

MY FRIENDS

FROM

MARIA 'CHOPRA' VETRY

GODDESS GURU

THINK AND GROW RICH: GODDESS AHA MOMENT

THINK AND GROW RICH:  THE MAJOR ATTRIBUTES OF LEADERSHIP

BY

NAPOLEON HILL

"It is no disgrace to be a follower.  On the other hand, it is no credit to remain a follower.  Most great leaders began in the capacity of followers.  They became great leaders because they were intelligent followers.  With few exceptions, the man who cannot follow a leader intelligently, cannot become an efficient leader.  The man who can follow a leader most efficiently, is usually the man who develops into leadership most rapidly.  An intelligent follower has many advantages, among them the opportunity to acquire knowledge from his leader."

Napoleon Hill

THE FOLLOWING ARE IMPORTANT AND MAJOR ATTRIBUTES OF LEADERSHIP:

1.  UNWAVERING COURAGE
            It is based upon knowledge of self, and of one's occupation.  No follower wishes to be dominated by a leader who lacks self-confidence and courage.  No intelligent follower will be dominated by such a leader very long.

2.  SELF-CONTROL
          The man/woman who cannot control himself can never control others.  Self-control sets a mighty example for one's followers, which the more intelligent will emulate.

3.  A KEEN SENSE OF JUSTICE
         Without a sense of fairness and justice, no leader can command and retain the respect of his followers.

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4.  DEFINITENESS OF DECISION

           The man/woman who wavers in his decisions, shows that he is not sure of himself, cannot lead others successfully.

5.  DEFINITENESS OF PLANS

           The successful leader must plan his/her work, and work his/her plan.  A leader who moves by guesswork, without practical, definite plans, is comparable to a ship without a rudder.  Sooner or later he will land on the rocks.

6.  THE HABIT OF DOING MORE THAN PAID FOR

           One of the penalties of leadership is the necessity of willingness, upon the part of the leader, to do more than he requires of his followers.

7.  A PLEASING PERSONALITY

         No slovenly, careless people can become a successful leader.  Leadership calls for respect.  Followers will not respect a leader who does not grade high on all of the factors of a pleasing personality.

8.  SYMPATHY AND UNDERSTANDING

           The successful leader must be in sympathy with his followers.  Moreover, he must understand them and their problems.

9.  MASTERY OF DETAILS

            Successful leadership calls for mastery of the details of the leader's position.

10.  WILLINGNESS TO ASSUME FULL RESPONSIBILITY

            The successful leader must be willing to assume responsibility for the mistakes and the shortcomings of his followers.  If he tries to shift this responsibility, he will not remain the leader.  If one of his followers makes a mistake, and shows himself incompetent, the leader must consider that it is he/she who failed.

11.  COOPERATION

           The successful leader must understand and apply the principle of cooperative effort and be able to induce his/her followers to do the same.  Leadership calls for power, and power calls for cooperation.

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FEARLESS WOMAN

A FEARLESS WOMAN: WORDS BY JEANNINE ROBERTS ROYCE

JEANNINE ROBERTS ROYCE

I learned about Jeannine Roberts Royce through my 2016 Date Book entitled

'A Fearless Woman'.  Her words of wisdom about the power of a woman attracted me to buy this 2016 Date Book.  Now here I am sharing you all the beautiful words that inspired me every day to be this fearless woman and a fearless goddess.  And I hope her inspiring

wisdom will also awaken the power of a woman inside all of us.

We are fierce with our feminine power.

We are beautiful and bold, audacious and courageous.

We bravely walk on to any stage, open-heartedly speaking the truth.

We make no excuses whatsoever, for who we are, for how we live, for what we believe.

JANUARY

She's becoming the one she imagined she could be.

BELIEVING BIG

No surprise to those who know her, she lives with a mission to follow her true path.

Believing big, trusting her heart and risking all, she creates the life she imagines.

FEBRUARY

She blooms with power and purpose.

PASSION FLOWER

Imagine your passion as a radiant flower, a vivid blend of power and purpose.

It's your soul's very essence blooming inside, uplifting you and guiding you.

MARCH

We are fearless women.

NO EXCUSES WHATSOEVER

We are fierce with our feminine power.  We are beautiful and bold, audacious and courageous.

Wise and creative, gutsy and strong, we will not be silenced or ignored.

We bravely walk on to any stage, open~hearted speaking the truth, making no excuses whatsoever for who we are, for how we live, for what we believe.

We are fearless women, beautiful and bold, unstoppable, indomitable.

APRIL

She surrenders her fear.

LETTING GO

Isn't this really the test of all test?

To let go of your fear even when you feel the worst you could feel.

As you surrender your fear you've lifted aloft toward renewal, even revelation.

Angel wings seem to catch you.

Letting go of your fear opens up a rare opportunity to reignite your purpose and,

maybe, truly know yourself for the first time.

MAY

She catches herself shining through.

SHINING THROUGH

How often do you fall into silly habit of

catching yourself being unworthy or foolish?

What if you were to suddenly shift from foolish to fearless?

Yes, you can do this! Easy as pride.

You can catch yourself flourishing, flowering

and flowing, being free.

You can catch your fearless spirit shining through.

JUNE

She is fearless in fulfilling her potential

TODAY I BEGIN

To live without fear or regret,

to release my burden of worry,

to heal and transform my life,

and to be resolute and fearless in fulfilling my potential.

I will not be held back by my own doubts or despair

because there are plenty of obstacles

out there without having to face

my own wrecking ball.

JULY

She feels a deep stirring.

IT'S NEVER TOO LATE

How long has it been since you used your voice,

shared your gifts, felt your passion?

How long since you've taken a risk or attempted a leap?

How long since you've acted on a heart-felt

fantasy or a deep stirring?

It's never too late to begin what intrigues you,

what calls you or stirs you.

It's never too late.

AUGUST

She is transformed and renewed.

MEDICINE FOR THE SOUL

Following the Fearless Way is medicine for the soul,

healing and transforming the past,

focusing your heart in the present,

creating a path to future potential.

If your soul feels adrift, try a spoonful of fearless!

It soothes the fever of fear,

restoring you to wholeness, renewing your vitality.

SEPTEMBER

She spins straw into gold.

GOLDEN OPPORTUNITY

With the power and wizardry of her passion

she charms fear and doubt into brave and believing.

She spins and transforms the fallout of

misfortune into golden opportunity

OCTOBER

She gets giddy at the thought of getting there.

WHAT'S HUMMING INSIDE?

What secret vision is so captivating

it makes your heart beat faster?

What obsesses you but you think

it's too far-fetched or foolish?

What do you long for, what feels so

juicy and voluptuous you get giddy

at the thought of getting there?

What visions are humming and pulsing

and about to explode?

You know what to do. Be fearless.

NOVEMBER

She imagines her vision.

WHAT DO YOU PICTURE IN YOUR MIND?

What is your outlook, your attitude, your vision?

Do you see through a lens of limitation or a lens of

mystery and possibility?  Are you living

from the small worries of your mind or

from the bigger part of your heart?

DECEMBER

She celebrates her kinship with all of life.

KINSHIP

In a circle of love, she finds comfort and connection

even in the darkest night.

In the embrace of kinship, she rediscovers her own

worthiness, purpose and joy.

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